I am not a perfect person.

I know that's a shocker. But I am not a perfect person. I will never be a perfect person. It's really easy on a blog to hide who you are. A person could create a completely different alter ego. They could take on any persona they so desired. They could magnify their achievements in life and rarely, if ever, mention their faults or failures.

I am not one of those people.
I refuse to wear a mask.
I may not share everything, but I always post the truth.

I have been greatly blessed with several women in my life to help me along the way. Most of them are older than me and have been where I am. My closest three girlfriends, in whom I confide all, say I'm going through a season. I'm in my late thirties, I have a husband, a brood of children, a farm to run. I'm going back to college (knees shaking here), I've been researching opening a little store of my own, and I'm in therapy to get over being claustophic in hopes of one day being able to enter the prayer room at church without running out hyperventilating with my heart pounding in my chest in hysterical tears.

WHEW!

Why am I telling you all of this? Because I'm being Baptized today at church. I was Baptized when I was about ten, but I didn't fully understand it. For years I've been wanting to do this and few months ago I knew it was time. THIS church. THIS minister. I am not perfect and do not present myself that way. I will never be made perfect until I am called home or until Christ comes again. If I were capable of perfection on my own, I wouldn't need Christ to begin with.

I'm not going to get all pretentious and start pretending to be someone I'm not. I will never wear a mask again. It's too difficult to remember which to wear for whom for one thing, and for another, when you're so busy hiding the truth from others, you tend to hide it from yourself as well. I'm just a human on this road for a while. I will go through many seasons and many changes, there will be many victories and many failures. But through it all, good example or bad, I am a Christian, and I have faith that He is with me each step of the way.

For I know whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able to keep that which I've committed unto Him against that day. II Tim. 1:2

For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in [me] will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus." Philippians 1:5-7


Peace Out,

~*~*~Krystal~*~*~